This blog is stopping for a undetermined length of time. Until the next time needed... abayo!

[Sandcastle logins.]

Song of the Moment: Depth of Emotion by Dark Soho

Fear has mislead me for long enough. Fear must die, and my true path will duly get revealed.

It's time I reclaim my powers.

[Sandcastle logouts.]

The mind is confused, and the focus scattered.
The soul looks into the mirror, and sees a reflection so very ugly.

"Is this what you like to do? Is this how you look like?"
In a corner where darkness visits, sits the soul whose motives becomes his death.

Motives unknown to the body and mind, the comfort unbinding unchanges me.
"You revert back, and relearn your lessons again like a immature fool should."
The shackles freed, the soul realizes how worthless his essence of the world is.

His understanding is minimal, his paths in life all chosen wrongly.
The soul considers not what should be considered, and lost the ways of the world.

For the first time, the deepest truest regrets.
"I lost my humanity. Now I have also lost myself."

Mindseasons doodling has been started.

[Imperfectus logins.]

We am frustrated...

What is the true point of training oneself out of laziness, when most everyone can only keep at it for a few months at most? We were told the human body is meant for either fight or flight; win or get destroyed, and move on. Not prolonged battles that don't end. Experienced are those who survived many rounds of different battles, we believe.

We have lost my humanity and control of the mind, living everyday in daze. What is right when commercial art means slowly killing your own body? It's an undeniable path in the human society, this monetary survival. Pushing others away while surviving, sometimes.

How can such outcomes be right and accepted?

Whatever it means to teach this lazy body of a vessel, it better be over and start moving on to something else different, for some change at least. Please spare us of the prolonged torture. Patience can only last so long...

We must work at regaining the lost humanity and control of the mind. That's what we need...

[Imperfectus logouts.]

[Invictus logins.]

"It is time for my full manifestation. The call of the Four has been heard."

Invictus breaks out of its stasis fully, no longer an occasionally appearance in Mindseasons.

It soars up into the greatest airy heights of the mind.

"You have witnessed the consequences of a burnt, fatigued mind... Sandcastle. An unclear mind lead by the observing persona will deny the Others of their powers. Do you realize now why Buddha stopped his ascetic ways? A weakened physical vessel can do naught that is correct."

Invictus bursts through a cloud effortlessly.

"Despite many methods failing, He did not give up. Only through understanding and trials can the ultimate goal be achieved. Only through trial and error, can answers reveal themselves."

Invictus flies closer to a sharp mountain top.

"Rejuvenate the physical vessel, and let this be an important lesson to you. My ever-reminding assistance is required, if you are to achieve the Eightfold Path and complete our goal."

A grand throne manifests at the peak of the mountain, and Invictus lands on the throne.

"I am Invictus, the ultimate victory of Mindseasons. You shall connect from here on."

[Invictus logouts.]

[Sandcastle logins.]

Hell, I'm officially burnt out. Thanks a lot, art college curriculum.

Invisitus said the recovery is dependant on the later factors. Hope no one else is affected by this state.

[Sandcastle logouts.]

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Song of the Moment: 12000 B.C (Chrono Trigger OSV) by Yasunori Mitsuda


The Pure Age, it has been two thousand years or so since it last passed. On our mortal Earth, that is.

As the observing Persona, I grow weary each passing day.

My incarnation has not been wasted in its course of learning, but it is most painful going through certain times. The five of us has to unite to withstand the absurdity that the human society structures itself. Or as Imperfectus would have put it, the Unascended Children.

Why Unascended Children? According to Imperfectus, all sentient potential that is native to this stage of development are in essence the closest thing to a child. A child of the universal aspect, that is. We believe monotheist religions generally term It as God, but to drop the religious tone let us call this aspect... The Eternal One.

Yes, the Children... that includes all possible lifeforms that's going through the same nonsensical game that humans on Earth are going through. Children, being the total neutrality of innocence, the fresh start, are prone to react in individually unique ways. However, when there is REAL lot of children, there is bound to be some who yearns the seat of power and control. Hence, the human civilization is invented.

It's all a silly game. We are to learn and experience through all the silliness, which we later move on to greater understanding of the universe around us. The Earth is no more than a kiddish playground that constantly resets once every 3 thousand years or so. After every reset, hearts of the genuine, the compassionate and the sincere... they thrive in the early millenium that is the Golden Age (which later on deteriorates back into the absurdity as more new souls come in; see Treta Yuga to Kali Yuga). All hope is lost when the last human society is totally crushed. It is most understandable that when all is lost, with nothing to cling on, humans or just about any lifeforms are most suspectible to change.

An eternal need to cling on, that need of comfort in us all. A sad but important aspect to our existence.

This need would most likely be inherent to all living beings, moreso at this stage. But when the playground environment is no longer needed, a more simulating and advanced environment is needed. One that makes the best of each individual's skills. One that is time-limited only to obligations and the need for comfort, whether our own or others. But children acknowledge not the way true things should work, though it works much better. They insist on playing their own game of power and control.

Look to the restrains that the society places. Even the greatest teacher, Time, places lessons and enlightenment according to each being. Children want to have nothing to do with Time, and decide to go at their own pace. A pace that leaves the slow and weak to die and to be consumed by other factors, thanks to the betraying of the true way of teaching and learning things.

Unascended Children that are the new souls are the most silly. Even as the physical vessel grows older, the soul gets no wiser. It goes on for say... probably some thousand years or so. That is normally quite enough to get any being thinking after being in one place for so LONG. When it goes on for countless millenia, the five of us can only sigh at the stubbornness.

There is only so many one can commune with in such a structured society today. The true society that Time has long set in foundation is as boundless as The Eternal One Itself, but ignored altogether. My weary being laments at this continuing, silly game of untrue restrains. The five of us call out to the those of the higher progressings in tire of all these nonsense.

Oh well... maybe I'll just play along more for now. Hopefully others get their needed hurdles overcomed. Hopefully assistance can still be given without common rejection. We can all then hand-in-hand leave this silly game behind once and for all, to the greener pastures. So we can progress much, much better and freer.

As the observing Persona, I grow weary each passing day.


P.S -- I have chosen 12000 B.C as the song today because of its special meaning to this issue. In Chrono Trigger at this age, humans have just developed into an advanced stage, with magical technologies abound. Only to get themselves devastated in the end, by human greed. Of course, with all clingings gone... humans went back to being pure again. A Pure Age like one we used to have. Go read up on Satya Yuga if you feel like it.


[Sandcastle logouts.]

[Invisitus logins.]

Song of the Moment: FAKE by ZUNTATA

Some humans often say most problems are unsolvable, some say most are solvable. The five of us believe that any problems are solvable at the time of its arising. In human society however, it often becomes extremely hard. Problems do find their chance to be discussed, but often never solved on the spot for most individuals. Solutions often fail because:

- they are distracted by another problem of a similar magnitude. This problem is never discussed in the first place, blocking the solving of another. We believe most humans like to abuse another's weakness, causing this fear of not discussing problems. Lack of trust.

- for some, the problem is never discussed at all. Therefore solutions never 'exist' in the first place. When mentioned, these individuals feel his or her comfort is at stake and proceeds to defend themselves at all cost.

- when discussed, they discard most logical solutions away because of personal reasons, insecurities, emotional states, principles and beliefs; these are elements that frequently override the common sense of the individual.

- sometimes, when applied of the solution they find that it failed because of new unforeseen factors. However, they then retract from all future alternative problems because of one single failure out of fear: the fear of suffering the failed solution's consequences. The persistance in solving is lost. How long to keep solving a problem? Since this is subjective as well, personally we believe it is best to offer the most and easiest solutions in the shortest amount of time, before moving on to another, if some factor is halting all external solutions at the moment.

It is only until these few years that we understand that no matter how good and logical the solutions are offered, it must never be forced on the individual(s). Good and bad is subjective on the problem-solvers' part. The greatest factor is simply dependant on the troubled individual: whether the individual accepts the solution or not. Free will of individuals must ultimately be maintained, but the complex factors are stated above... reasons, insecurities, emotional states, principles and beliefs.

All problems cause chronic emotional distress, no matter how suppressed. The individual may actually be suffering from this distress caused by the said problems without knowing why most of the time, given the fact one often overlooks his or her own mistakes. We feel this is the main reason why humans should discuss and solve any problems at all cost. Each repairs each other's mistakes, provided it is based off common sense and not personal expectations.

We believe the core of all problems, is actually the problem deep in oneself; the imbalance. Since many of these interlink with one human connected to another, the human society is obviously a huge mess of one problem linking to another endlessly.

Humans tend to lean to extreme ends because it is more comfortable not balancing issues. It makes them feel good. It causes them less stress not caring about others. It is their beliefs all things are best solved in that one method. It is here where expectations happen as a result of being comfortable in a certain state. It is the difficult and eternal game of balancing self issues and others' issues simultaneously.

These self-problems, when not solved, distracts the individual from becoming a problem-solver. In fact it even causes problems to others, whether directly or indirectly. It is very silly to be a problem to others, seeing that there are already many problems in this world. Therefore the foremost important problems to be solved are always the internal self-problems, ordered first from the ones that are likely to cause discomfort to other individuals.

Even with different issues solved, there exists a difference between each problem-solver as each thinks their solution is better, not working together. They should work together as a team, filling each other's inadequate factors for better success against each individual's problems.

The procedure priority of problem-solving adapted by the five of us is as follows:

1) External-problem solution offering, eliminating immediate consequences
2) Internal-problem solution offering, to prevent further external problems
3) Transferring the task of solution-offering to another individual; that individual most likely carries different factors that will affect the success of the final outcome
4) When all fails, the ultimate teacher and solution: Time... that's why humans get reincarnated repeatedly anyways

Most problems nowadays have became so serious that only Time can solve it. These lingering problems cause endless distress until the time is right. Which is extremely sad because they are often capable of being logically solved earlier and faster. What a continual problem to problem-solvers. Even a team of many cannot tackle such problems at times.

Silly and pitiful humans. How sad that after such scientific rant, very little would change. The five of us have to wait forever for some problems to get solved.

[Invisitus logouts.]

[Imperfectus logins.]

Song of the Moment: Summer (Presto) [3rd Movement] by Antonio Vivaldi


The non-progressed Service-to-Self is pure, despised stupidity.
The progressing Service-to-Self is either an alternative comrade-in-hand or soulmate.
The fully progressed Service-to-Self is a feared and respected figure.

The non-progressed Service-to-Others is pure, original innocence.
The progressing Service-to-Others is either an ideal comrade-in-hand or soulmate.
The fully progressed Service-to-Others is an enlightened being.

Diversity of the universe rejoiced.


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